May 2nd, 2010
It amazes me how easily I can be forgotten/disregarded.
Or does it...
Current Mood: pissed off
April 30th, 2010
|08:58 pm - KMF|
KMF is tomorrow *cries*
I want to be in Cali so much rn.
Toronto needs to have a KMF. PLEASE. I don't mind traveling 5 hours by bus for that T_T
Current Mood: irritated
April 29th, 2010
|05:12 pm - =^.^=|
I've always wanted a Persian cat. They look so stupid that it's just adorable.
I'd probably laugh in its face every time it looked at me though, so it'd eventually get payback by eating me in my sleep.
Current Mood: geeky
April 28th, 2010
|10:36 pm - *yawn*|
Have you ever been so tired it feels like your face is melting off? I don't really know how else to explain it lol. I hope my face stays attached to my head @_@ Otherwise, it would be quite awkward...
I told my doctor that I'm too tired to even feed myself, so much so that I've lost ten pounds in 6 weeks and she was like wuteva
Current Mood: drained
April 27th, 2010
|05:26 pm - Fail.|
Trying to change my lifestyle
today I woke up at 3:45pm
... it takes time x_x
Current Mood: groggy
April 25th, 2010
|03:59 pm - Veggies|
Me: "I'm glad I love the taste of vegetables since they're so healthy."
Dad: "Just like your great-grandmother."
Me: "Did she live for a long time?"
Dad: "Well, she made it to 86."
Me: "That's not bad... What did she die of?"
Me: "... Oh."
Dad: "Stomach cancer."
Me: "............. ohhhhhhhhh......." D:
Current Mood: amused
April 24th, 2010
|03:30 pm - Am I this kind of person?|
In an argument, I will never admit that I'm wrong.
However, I have no problem admitting my human flaws. (Such as not being able to admit that I'm wrong)
It's a bit weird...
I am LAZY.
So much so that my mother becomes suspicious when I start doing productive things.
"You emptied the dishwasher without me asking you to? ... What did you do wrong? Do you want money or something? Are you sick?"
My reputation is really like this?
Ah... I will start cleaning more.
But not too much... or else it won't be such a special occasion :P
Current Mood: amused
April 23rd, 2010
|03:50 pm - I feel.... good?|
I woke up today feeling happy.
Not even just happy, but the type of feeling that made me sit straight up and smile like a fool. This doesn't happen. Not to me... not since I was a kid.
But I'll take it! And I hope nothing ruins this feeling today.
Looking at my life right now... and all of it's turbulence, I feel at peace.
In grade 8 I was hit with a debilitating anxiety disorder that has caused the rest of my life since to be quite shaken up. Before this happened, I was a high achiever, top of the class. I wasn't going to skip classes in high school like my sisters... I was going to graduate with honors and a scholarship to a good university.
But life came crashing down, I'm 19 years old, and only have half of my high school credits. My current course of action is taking online courses... one at a time. I thought taking the GED (high school diploma equivalent in the form of several large tests) was a cop out. I wanted to take each course individually, achieve at least 90% in all of them, and get my high school diploma.
This is slow. I'm turning 20 this year and at this rate I'll be 30 by the time I graduate.
So yesterday I made a decision. I emailed my online school and told them I decided to take the GED. I've laid myself down in front of my high standards.
I don't have to change the goals I've had since my childhood. I can simply change the way I approach them. I've become a different person since then. Life threw me lots of curves and I've been trying to beat them out of the way and go back to the way I was when I was eleven.
Adapting to life's challenges, as opposed to fighting them, I guess.
Current Mood: peaceful
April 22nd, 2010
|07:22 pm - New (ridiculous) Journal...|
... fresh start!
I'll hopefully keep this one updated.. at least.. more than the last one x_x
But I'm kind of lazy about this, and I feel I never have anything interesting to say.
We'll see =)
Current Mood: anxious